haha how funny

i ♥ you tejas.

I had this sick dream that I was jump roping and in the background was that dave matthew's band song, crash into me. my wedding song by the way. &I just felt so free and everything was fading out and I started feeling complete and I couldn't stop rope jumping. And then I woke up and my heart was racing and I couldn't stop it and everything felt heavy and I was burning up and broke down crying. what the hell is wrong with me.


everything has been alright. can't complain.


yesterday's horscope: you're not a failure if you need to walk away from a situation that's not right!
Do what's best for you.

Ten things to say to ten different people right now:

1. All I ask is that you don't ever change who you are.

2. I love you more then anything in this world.
I am humbly and sincerely sorry for what I've put you through.
You mean everything to me.

3. You need to meet my new puppy &hang out with me more!
I miss you. I know things have (always!) been hectic in both of our lives.
I love you for always being there when it counts.

4. I'm sorry if I've disappointed you, because I know I've done it many times.
I hope you don't give up on me even when I've given up on you because those
are the times when I need you the most.

5. I can't wait to see you. How did we ever live with out each other these past 2-3 years?
You're awesome and definitely my better, hotter, funnier half;)

6. I have the highest respect for you. I've always looked up to you
&learned from you. We were never close,
but I've never given up on you. ever.

7. I haven't heard from you and you know I've been wanting to
see you since I've been back. I hope things are good and it's nothing to worry about.
I have a lot of respect for you as a friend and I appreciate the advices and talks.

8. I think you owe me an explanation or at least an apology.
I don't care about it anymore, but you should still do that.
I was pretty nice about this whole thing- but what the hell?

9. I'm sorry I wasn't around. I'm sorry I couldn't do anything when I could have.
I miss you and I try not to because I can't do anything about it.
I hope you're alright and that's all I can hope and think. and that's not fair.

10. I'm a little disappointed but like you said, it's whatever.

<3

-i'm home with my parents! i've missed them so freaking much.
-i had to pee in the wood (for the first &hopefully last) at lake grapevine, scary! :(
-i want to go back to gratvines mall though:)
-i made smores over a camp fire for the first time. YUMM! =)
-korean food>vietnamese food
-i got a new tv, bed, blankets, pillows, puppy, curtains, psp, playstation
from boyfriend in one week= BEST BOYFRIEND EVER!
-taco bell's mango-strawberry freeze is THE BEST slush I've EVER had!
-i got a pretty good tan from flea market/ bbq/ lake!
-cleaning is becoming therapeutic for me somehow?
-i just found out that madison is also mix with retriever?
-and my shihtzu's thingy looks like a weiner?!
-maybe she's a boy!?!?!?
-at home, i cannot sleep at night. idk!

dfw=meh

last week was one of the best week in my entirely life... in dallas anyways.
byebye best week in dallas.
hopefully more to come.

a lot of good times that made up for a lot of bad times.

i was off and on sick, but that didn't ruin everything,
no since like I said one of the best if not the best.

update on my doggies.... this is confusing so just follow...
all three of our puppies got adopted, and moose was given away.
so that leaves us with madison. because i was so sad about moose
(maybe that's why, because i was)

my boyfriend bought me a

..........

toy shih tzu!

i weighed her earlier, and she's one pound. She's pretty freaking AWESOME.
my parents adore her. which means she's really, really great!
her name is BELLY. because she has a tubby belly.

damn

texas is too f'ing hot.

over my shoulderrrr,

mika- life in cartoon, i got their cd a few months back (good cd btw)
and there's a hidden track (that's my personal fave)
at the end of the last track- happy endings.
well, i did my research and found it!
depressing? makes you want to kill yourself? sure!
well, i think it's beautiful.


anyhow, I've been pretty freaking sick from
the pretty much summer cold weather here in PA!?!??!
I got Lucky (bf's shihtzu) sick too since
I'm around him 24/7 and now he keeps sneezing and I feel terrible.

also (as in has nothing to do w/ what I was talking about),
there are no mexicans in PA.
is that racist? cause it's not.
if you're from tejas, it's quite noticeable.
also, we're like the only asians, so.
yea, cultural shock really.
if you want vietnamese food, you'd have to go to ohio
and settle for some crappy vietnamese food!

um, memorials-
we went to the zoo and I think I caught something that I'm allergic to
because I've been itching and breaking out. It's the exotic plants damnit ;(
but, its all good, i love the animals I got to see.
I want everything. I want a snow cougar? and white tail deers are pretty?
and i got to play with a goat that was pretty much about to fall over and die.
annnd, i want a lot of exotic fish. like a small shark or a hammer head will do.
and jelly fishes, big star fish- what have you.

on random rantings,
man, tila tequila is annoying.
hot to stare at until she opened up her mouth
and got her own show on mtv. totally killed it.
her voice and her attitude is ugly.

oh but sadly, i'm a closet fan of rock of love w/ brett michaels.
and i found an interest in the history channel.
that's all me and tom tune in to watch now.
and we sit there and talk about
aliens, bigfoot, and the lost city of atlantis til 3in the morning.
i found my soulmate!




things I miss:
my dogs. madison&moose.sweetest dogs EVER.
kathy. my girlfriend who's always had my back. my play friend!
mikaela. the smaller version of kathy. what can be better?
kbn. because everyone needs a genuine, sincere, guy friend with the bestest advice.
taiwanese ice, tokyo1, genroku, wingstop, sonic's slushy!
my brother, my family.
going to church. I haven't been to church in awhile and I miss feeling close to God.
swimming. there's always summer.

Over My Shoulder - MIKA

sleep.

sometime we expect more from
others because we would be
willing to do that much for them.